a thought in a silent night

No matter how hard it is for me..I must survive..keep my head up..keep the smile on my face..even though I feel so blue..

Sometimes I desperately need someone to share my ups n downs with..someone that I trust the most so that I can talk freely on anything at all..

I can always talk to my God..that's true..but sometimes I wanna have a two way communication..

However, I don't wanna be a burden for anyone..don't wanna add more problems for everyone..even if I do, I'm not intentionally doing it..I've tried to sort things out myself as best as I could..

a complicated love

Bayang-bayangmu melekat kuat dihati..
Betapa pun ku menampik..
Kau tetap tak bergeming dari dalam diri..

Bukan ku tak sadar akan semua..
Adanya dirinya dalam hidupmu..
Adalah sesuatu yang nyata..

Tak ingin ku sengaja bertahan di sini..
Dan merusak tatanan yang tertata rapi..
Ku coba meredam gejolak di hati..

Namun ku tak mampu melawan rindu..
Binar matamu juga manis senyummu..
Meluluh lantak benteng hati ini..

Meskipun ku paham rasa ini tidak selayaknya..
Tapi ku tak mampu berkata tidak..
Karna sungguh ku cinta..




Bandung, 14 Februari 2010
23.28