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I know that you don't love me as much as I love you..
I know that you don't want me as much as I want you..
I know that you don't need me as much as I need you..
I know that you don't miss me as much as I miss you..

But I wanna thank you..
For the sweet memories you had given me..
For the colours you gave in my life..
For reminding me of the feeling I almost forget..

I am sorry for not being able to be someone that you want..
I am sorry for things I said and done that hurt you..
I am sorry for being so selfish and burden you..
I am sorry for loving you too much..

Bandung, 13 December 2009
12.26

lucky to have been where i have been

"Lucky to have been where I have been.." penggalan lirik yang dinyanyiin jason mraz n colbie calliat ini bkin gw bpikir u sll bsyukur dg situasi n kondisi yg gw hadapin skrg..

Entah bagaimana mnyenangkannya atau sebaliknya situasi yg b'ulang-ulang tjadi, kita mmg harus sll msyukuriny..bsyukur krn kita msh dberikn ksempatan oleh-Nya merasakan segala hal yang diberikan oleh situasi tersebut dan mengingatnya selalu..karena sll ada makna dan tujuan dari setiap hal yang terjadi..

Dan pastinya lebih dpt msyukuri dan memaknai apabila situasi yang dihadapi jauh lebih baik dari yang sebelumnya.

the scene

Another scene in my life has shown how it's gonna b ended..
Need to prepare myself for the scene..
I have been in the same scene for several times in this play..
I know how to act in this part..the expressions..the emotions..you name it..I remember every inch of it..
How can I forget this part??
This scene is the favourite part of my Director..
He often picks this kind of scene for me..
He said I need to enhance my skills in acting and get the most from the scene..
I occasionally ask for a subtitution or other scenes..
But He refused my wish..
He insisted me playing the scene..
For my own's good,He reasoned..
And I just can not do His demand, He is the Director of this play..
He who has the most knowledge on what's best for this play to be..
I just hope that someday, he will see my skill as good enough and let me play other scenes..
Scenes that I can only see for times from the backstage..
I wish..

Bandung, 13 December 2009
11.23